ouch. again

finally i can access blogspot. cant access for the past few days. dont know what happened.

results were out ytd. super happy. for a moment i was one of the happiest girls on earth. haha. they were unexpected. i thought my CAP would drop badly cos the papers werent easy at all. couldnt slp well the night before too. who knows i improved instead! haha. I'm closer to my target now. mad happy! gona work hard next sem and contd to improve so that i can attain my second upper. (hopefully) (:

I once said that i shld stop revolving my life ard bf. haha. i guess it's really time to make that happen. life still goes on no matter what happen.

sometimes i feel so suffocated, with all the feelings and thoughts bottled up inside. all i could think of doing was to slp thru it. i didnt want to keep bothering that awesome friend of mine cos i know he has his own troubles too. so much on my mind now. how i wish i could just scream away everything.

at the end of the day, everything doesnt matter, or does it?
then again, it brings back the 'philosophical' question of what exactly is life all about?


everyone has their darkest fear and secret, which does not want anyone to know about.

stupid girl.

sighh. so what?

just leave me alone to drown in my thoughts and unhappiness.

making simple things complicated.
making easy stuffs tough.
making happy moments unhappy.

sometimes, i just feel that nobody understands me.
of cos i dont blame anybody fr that. cos i couldnt understand myself at times too.
nobody understands the fear in me. i admit that sometimes instead of solving the problem, all i did was to hide under my blanket and let my tears flow. then i'll fall asleep after that. staying away from everything for awhile. i really dont know what's next.

somebody to guide and lead the way? please?

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Love me when i least deserve it. That's when i need u the most.

finally. yr 2 ended

year 2 ended like a few days ago. cant believe everything ended so fast. haha. yr 3 soon. yr 2 sem 2 was the suckiest sem ever. i hope the exam results wont be too sucky. *cross fingers*

hmm.. few things have been on my mind. no more exams and sch to think abt for the time being, but whether to work a not becomes the next question. i really want to travel though. if i can choose between work or travel, i would definitely choose travel. been wanting to go taiwan since i dont know when. too bad bf is in NS. friends cant travel. i think i dont have the kind of travelling life. haha. been so long since i last went overseas. whenever my friends tell me that they are going overseas. even if it's just msia, i would sorta like envy them. haa. so much fun and relaxation. dont have my share of the pie. what to do? sighh

actually, i dont really feel happy even though exams are over. didnt realise being happy can be quite tough.

somehow, i feel that bf and sista are the only people who are truly nice to me. everything is just a facade.

i want and i need a getaway.
away from all the fakers.