learn

i learnt a lot of new things today.

1. i'm a trouble
2. i really cant change anything
3. im not important, so i shld stop thinking too highly of myself.
4. never ever look forward to anything.
5. never expects anything
6. dont put your hopes too high up even if u are expecting/looking forward to anything

why must it always happen? he's enlisting on the 9th. i only asked if he could choose not to work on his last weekend. must he phrase his words that way? yeah. i know i cant change anything. im insignificant. sorry for being a troublesome gf. i suck. whatever. you've no idea how disappointed am i for the past few days. how hurt am i now.

just do whatever u like. i dont wanna care. i dont wanna ask for anything anymore.
since im insignificant. i've no say in anything. then there's nth i can do abt it.

life still goes on.
and it suck.