where are all my happy posts

where have all my happy posts gone to?

:(

home alone with bubble.
he didnt want to accompany me right from the start. the lift door at the corridor kept opening. i was hoping to receive an sms from him, to ask me to open the door for him. haha. apparently there's nth. haha. shldnt even think abt it. dumb girl. really stupid.

slept at 3 plus last night. i didnt wake him up. cos i dont wanna get hurt again. his grumpiness. his unhappiness. when he used to tell me i can always wake him up when i cant get to slp. he apologised over and over. apparently his actions didnt seem to fit his words. I've given up. I've had enough. i struggled to fall asleep last night. i finally did. but i didnt slp well. i coughed badly. like damn a lot of times. my lungs kinda hurt. but whatever la.

promises hurt. aint they supposed to be giving me assurance?

im starting to use 'sleep' to escape from reality.
somebody tell me what to do?

wo kuai cheng bu zhu le. zhen me ban.
:'(

u really always aint ard when i needed someone badly.
this feeling totally suck.
suck ttm.
ouch.