this sucks

I have decided to be miss independent. (:

things may be easier this way. I supposed i am a lil too dependent on bf for company. I am being an idiot.

I totally hate the way me and bf are communicating now. saying things that hurt each other so badly. its shit. seriously. and it's all my fault. yeah. i shld be more accepting and open. doesnt matter even if we spend less time tgt for the next few months.

seriously. i just want to cope myself in a dark room. and maybe i shld give myself a few slaps to become sober again. i didnt know disappointment and heartbreaks could be so much more hurtful than physical cuts and bruises. dumbass.

0k. i am going to be over with this sadness. soon. hopefully soon.
i need to realise.
and it takes time.

wo zhen de hen lei. and i bring it upon myself.
serve me right. i expected a lil too much out of this relationship.