friends

i'll whine here ok. no more fb. actually want also can. since i set it to private alrdy. so they wont find it irritating. i didnt know being expressive can be irritating. but nw i knw. haha.

i think i've been thru a lot.. i know i know. 20 yrs old haven really seen teh real world yet. blah blah. but somehow i feeel that im bearing more than what a 20 yr old is "supposed" to bear? i dont know.
firstly, i feel so weak. like fever up and down. friends. bf. RAHH. whatever la. so many prob. maybe im the one with prob. i really dont knw. and maybe i shldnt care. rantings can be irritating i knw. but not to that extent??? im like this. either u like me or u dont. thats it. if u cant accept me for who am i, then im sorry.

but i feel so silly. why am i changing for the sake of others? seriously. i dont knw. i guess im just afraid to lose my friends. so im always giving in. ARGH. i dont know. sick and tired. and yes. i do miss my bf. cos he always make things seem right. although i do complain abt him. but he's still awesome.

sigh. i'll slp my troubles away.
i suck
im whiny
whatever la.
this is just me.
i just want to be that happy girl in jc again.